Is it so bad that I buy my girls dresses so often? They won't be little forever and there is going to be a day that they won't wear them or even want me to buy them any longer! Why not indulge in their fantasy of being princesses!?
Is it so bad that I hang my clothes facing in the same direction all on matching hangers!? It makes a beautiful closet in my mind! The fact that I fold my clothes a certain way... is that such a crime?
Is it so bad I like to raise my children a certain way, allowing them to do certain things and not do other certain things? That I discipline each of them using different methods that works for each different child such as time outs, lectures, and spankings?
I have heard so many times that I am a perfectionist or OCD or just plain out making things more difficult for myself.
But this is how I cope with life! I buy clothes and things because I get a kick off having something new! Not very often do I do this but I still do it! I hang the clothes a certain way and fold them a certain way because order calms me and soothes me and I can function much more peacefully with inner beauty (that means a pretty closet). If I don't SPANK my boy, he doesn't get it. If I don't put my girls in time out, they don't get it. My boy thinks time out is a game. My girls think spankings are horrible (and honestly they never know why they get them). Before they get out of time out we discuss the reason of their time out and boy is that every punishment for one of the girls!!! I receive peace in knowing they are less likely to offend if a proper punishment is inflicted! SO LET ME BE!!! I think that on normal circumstances I am a great mom that does things differently than some but it is my way whether it be perfectionist, OCD, or just loonie!
Has someone been questioning your parenting skills and how you put your laundry away? How about you come over to my house...I have a stack of laundry on the couch and an even bigger stack in a laundry basket in my room, overflowing to the floor, that really need to be put away and I just really do not want to do it. I think putting the laundry away is my least favorite chore.
ReplyDeleteSomething like that. But mostly it is me feeling guilty that I can't be perfect anymore or even do anything that makes me feel important. I really want to get back to my old responsibilities. But I know better!
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